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a facade, a mirage is wot i see in a broken world of vic.
glue it back fast before all the good parts of your world escapes again.
treasure all the happiness that is before you
and think not of the happiness that is not within ones reach.

-i dunno why i tag that for vic, but i wish she bcomes strong. i felt this has alot of meang. so here i am, sharing my tag with all those out thr. dream a dream, fool-

floaters
i kinda forgot everything i told shi yan that day. all the facts i felt. all the emotions i had within myself. of this cold cold world.

i only remember that i told him i was a floater in this world.
floating ard for who knows which reason.
floating to help those undeserved.
and not helping those who needed help.
floating by seeing the dead bodies of tmr.
the dead bodies which presented no hope.
i told him of how life has been cruel.
and i must admit.
everyone of us have a little US inside ourselves which is eager to b loved, to love, to b hurt, to b unhurt.
hurt makes us grow.
being unhurt gives us stunted growth.
trust me as i say, in this world, growth of an individual is essential for survival.
for if u do not grow, u wont survive a second.
ppl make use of our depression, our so thought to b weakest point of time in our lives to manipulate our bhaviour our thoughts.
i think men shldnt rush into a decision or a conclusion due to manipulation.
yet here i am preaching something i dont practise.
do i not rush?
do i not weaken?
many questions with no answers.
perhaps you think you have the answer, but every individual is unique and special.
how can your ans b theirs?
like i said, ure manipulating them.
triggerg them to think of ur idea.
slowly, they start thinkin ur idea is good.
but is it?
think again.
i dunno.
i feel that the only way to escape all this, is to let time do its healing.
to fall into something called a fantasy.
or you may want to call it a dream.
im cranky yarnoe.
i think i am.
somehow, sadness is pouring in.
but i hope someday, someday happiness will once again blossom in my barren garden.
my heart wails.
as only one man stays in it.
why this man?
i dont know why either.
perhaps i'd know in time to come.
but for now..
i guess time...is nv coming.

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enough of unhappy things. i went out with yh and shaz ytd.
going back to school was fun.
totally awesome seeg everyone and eating the very delicious wanton noodles.
i fear being seen.but yet, i fear being unseen.
haha.
it was real fun.
did a tattoo too! (:
totally awesome.
tho i dont really like those tattoos.
but seeing mine makes me think twice.
im still nv going for real once.
cos facades and mirages are the best.
the best to satisfy the contentment of the heart.
for at least, shld thr b regrets.
it can b taken off.
ahhhh*
wonderful (:
shopping was real fun.
i bcame a belt queen.
hahaaa.
u know wot mean yh and shaz.
ciao babes.
took neos with them.
will try to find a fren to scan and upload it here on my blog fer u guys to see.
haha.
babe signg out-